More specifically though, I wanted to blog tonight because lil'bub had A GOOD DAY. A very rare, smiley, excited, not sleepy or frustrated DAY. These days are not to be taken for granted.
Just last week I was at the end of another rope, trying desperately to figure out why her behavior became so volatile and aggressive at literally the exact time that she finally started sleeping normally again... and I don't even mean normally for her, I mean this girl is sleeping THROUGH THE NIGHT. Sorry, I'm a little CAP happy but she is friggin finally getting a "normal" night of sleep. But before we could start celebrating this amazing change, her behavior went straight to hell. I'm talking insanely moody and self injurious. Like, totally opposite of what you would assume would happen when someone started getting more sleep!?!?!?
I could talk all day about all of the mind boggling symptoms that drive us all mad but what I really want to focus on is what a nice day we had TODAY. I had to pick her up early from school for a dentist (ugh) appointment and even that didn't put a kink in our glorious day! We "talked" and giggled and sang and listened to Disney princess music (new fave) and clapped and hugged and kissed and just generally made mommy's heart burst with happiness because THIS is my Avery. My Avery that I don't get to see very often anymore. And I miss her.
I want her back so bad that I would trade allllllmost anything. Very close to anything. The weird thing is that she really seems to be doing great at school, after nine long months of confusion and frustration, but her home life is going the opposite way. And we can easily say that she has our number--big time--and knows how to manipulate, but this seems different. It's an unhappiness that seems different.
I am going to hold on to today and pray for more. Maybe, just maybe, we've turned a bend.
Look how good she looks in her walker at school, working on her goals...
I think we have found better incentives and worked on the connections with her teachers to get to a much better place at her school. This picture makes me smile big.
We've also introduced Avery to a new communication device that we hope will translate into a lot less frustration for everyone. She is getting the hang of it and learning quickly how to use it to get what she wants.
Meanwhile this little sunshine continues to be wonderful. She is so full of smiles and love and enthusiasm that just make me adore being her mom.
She is almost done with her year of PreK (how did it go so fast??) and has received glowing reports from her teachers. And this is a whole other blog post, but she started READING. Legit reading! Bed time books are no longer read by mommy and daddy, they are read by Maddie! We are so proud of her.